Yesterday was a year since I have spoken to my mother, yes, it hurts, but it is definitely for the best. Here is more from my past journals: June 26th, 1995~~~Thanks to Jesus Christ my Savior, I am trying to recover and I am a little better, I tried to face my problem, my stepfather. I am angry at him for sexually abusing me, I showed him just how angry I have been to his face with my father-in-law, and my mother present. I cussed him and threw things at him. I told him that if he ever touched my girls I would kill him. Jesus is trying to release my anger.~~~~At that time that was only part of the anger that was in me. Little did I know there was much more to come.