Life is Tricky

    I haven’t written in a while, but, my life has been crazy.  My body is fighting against me as, I have started the beginnings of menopause, also, in October my husband was finally able to have his youngest daughter live with us, after 10 years of living with her grandmother, (my husband’s mom).  The truth about what’s behind that, is a very long, frustrating story.  Any way, 10 years later, we have my husband’s 12 year old daughter living with us.  It’s a very happy occasion, don’t get me wrong yet,  you have to understand, my biological daughters are grown, married and out of the house, and we have a 2 year old granddaughter.  So, I have lived a long time just taking care of myself and my husband, this is a shock to my 48 year old mind and body.  My energy level is not what is used to be, and his daughter is missing some very simple basic rules of life, all in all, she is a very sweet child though.

As far as menopause goes, I am irritable, tired, and never know when I’m going to have my monthly visitor.  I have night sweats, no libido and I get very depressed at times.  This is on top of my diagnosed severe anxiety, PTSD, bipolar disorder, etc… So I guess you can see why, I haven’t had time to write until now.  I started selling Younique products, which is something I love, but, I haven’t had a lot of time to put into it.  Here is the link if you would like to purchase makeup, or skincare products.  Your face will love you if you do,

Tomorrow, is my granddaughter’s 2nd birthday.  She has already had her birthday party, but I am going to try to make her day as special as possible.  I cannot believe how the time has just flown by.  Any who, I wanted to write before I fall asleep in my favorite chair. LOL  I will try to post more often.  Hope 2017 has been treating you well.



Winter Blues, Holiday, or Menopause?

     Good Enough__Love this song!!!!  What a crappy 10 days!!!  I think I’m at the beginning stages of menopause, but then again, it’s winter, which means Holidays!!!  Every Christmas except the last 3 years has involved my mother, the mother that chose my molester instead of her only child.  It’s getting a little easier, but I cannot ignore, I always get somewhat depressed.  I also know that I am in the middle of perimenopause.  Not a good combination.  I am so tired.  I don’t feel like getting out of the house, I want to sleep, and I sure as heck don’t feel like doing housework right now!  UGH!!!! 

I have a grandbaby on the way though, and that’s a positive.  Little Isla, will be born possibly in late January or February.  I can’t wait, although I am so nervous when I think of taking on this new role.  I know she is just going to be so beautiful. 

Right at this moment, all I want to do is take a nap, and it’s only 4:22 PM Central time.  I am waiting on a delivery, so, no nap as of yet.  You bet, I will get one in though, because I feel like I’m going to collapse!!!  Too all of my followers, hang in there, and if you have to, get up and get moving if you have the strength.  I’m with you though, I know how you feel!!!

You know what though, I have my family, my real family.  The family that has been loyal to the very end.  And that’s a blessing so today I will count my blessings.