Life is Tricky

    I haven’t written in a while, but, my life has been crazy.  My body is fighting against me as, I have started the beginnings of menopause, also, in October my husband was finally able to have his youngest daughter live with us, after 10 years of living with her grandmother, (my husband’s mom).  The truth about what’s behind that, is a very long, frustrating story.  Any way, 10 years later, we have my husband’s 12 year old daughter living with us.  It’s a very happy occasion, don’t get me wrong yet,  you have to understand, my biological daughters are grown, married and out of the house, and we have a 2 year old granddaughter.  So, I have lived a long time just taking care of myself and my husband, this is a shock to my 48 year old mind and body.  My energy level is not what is used to be, and his daughter is missing some very simple basic rules of life, all in all, she is a very sweet child though.

As far as menopause goes, I am irritable, tired, and never know when I’m going to have my monthly visitor.  I have night sweats, no libido and I get very depressed at times.  This is on top of my diagnosed severe anxiety, PTSD, bipolar disorder, etc… So I guess you can see why, I haven’t had time to write until now.  I started selling Younique products, which is something I love, but, I haven’t had a lot of time to put into it.  Here is the link if you would like to purchase makeup, or skincare products.  Your face will love you if you do,

Tomorrow, is my granddaughter’s 2nd birthday.  She has already had her birthday party, but I am going to try to make her day as special as possible.  I cannot believe how the time has just flown by.  Any who, I wanted to write before I fall asleep in my favorite chair. LOL  I will try to post more often.  Hope 2017 has been treating you well.



Time to go again

Every month I go to Counseling.  At first I dread going, because I just don’t want to leave my house, then once i get there, the words pour out and before I know it, it’s time to go.  It’s then that I realize, I still have a ways to go.  Of course I know that I will forever have issues from the sexual abuse, that’s just a given.  I still have quirks, there are things that I can tell her, that I can’t tell anyone at all.  I mean no one.  So if you know me and you read this, don’t even ask, I won’t tell you.  I have been with my counselor, (The Same One), for over 10 years.  Even though it’s a professional relationship, she is like my family because I can trust her.  I don’t care what anyone says, if they have endured sexual abuse, or any abuse at all, they need counseling!  They owe it to themselves.  Even as I type this, I get nervous about going.  I don’t know why, I’m ok once I leave this house, but before, I have to breathe deep and try to calm down. That is second to a relationship with the one and only true God.  Please get the help you need, and if you have my email, get a hold of me.  And of course read my book Forgiveness Not Permission by Beth Kozine, available on Amazon.